Sunday, August 31, 2008

Eight months

I got an email yesterday that said:

The Eighth Month - Countdown to Birth Day!

Of course, that made the panic set in again, ha ha! Honestly, I feel like I've always been pregnant. This is "normal" to me now. That's not the same as saying that I feel like I've been pregnant FOREVER, because to me, that implies that I'm just tired of the whole business, and I'm not. I was thinking, how weird will it be to be able to see my feet again without bending over? How strange to not feel little bumps and flutters in my belly? How bizarre to be able to sit in a ladylike fashion again, with knees together, and to have the ability to get up gracefully?

I see pictures of myself not pregnant, and while I still do not fail to be amazed by the gigantic proportions my midsection has attained recently, I do think it looks weird to not have the belly at all.

Don't get me wrong - I really want to meet this little guy. He's in there, and I can feel him running out of room. Those vigorous kicks and tumbles he was experimenting with a couple of months ago are now mostly a lot of slow, deliberate stretches. I can rub my stomach and feel him move under my hands, with just that thin wall of skin and muscle separating us. I want to know what part of him I'm feeling, I want to know what he looks like, I want him to know what we look like!

We have just seven weeks left. That's 49 days. September will be the last complete calendar month we have with just us in the house. Of course, theoretically, this baby could come before then, but I'm trying not to think of that, because I'm not ready yet! Will I ever be ready?

Next weekend we're buying the carseat, the nursing pillow, plus some of the stuff for my hospital bag. I figure if every time we go to Target or Walmart we pick up one little thing (some lap pads, a box of nursing pads, a tube of lanolin) we'll cover a bunch of the little last minute things. I've made the checklist of what I'm bringing to the hospital. My weekly task on Babycenter this week was to wash all those baby clothes. I think I'll wait a bit longer on that, and then only do the tiniest things.

We're getting close here!

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